Where Did the Time Go?

As with any December, cold weather arrived with fierceness. Thank God, we haven’t gotten any snow – just a little snow flurries. I am more than ready for spring time and nice weather. I am sitting in Kentucky with the average of 34 degree weather and Towanna is sitting in Florida enjoying high 70’s and lounging on her pool deck. Something just is not right with that.

There were a few days that I didn’t write and that I can honestly say that I was not being lazy or procrastinating. I was busy with holiday events.  We enjoyed an extended weekend over Christmas and will be taking one for New Year’s Day weekend as well. Today, (for some strange reason) Towanna insist we get back to work.

This month, plans have begun in regards to special event that will happen at the beginning of next summer that I can’t wait for.  It will take a lot of planning and coordination but it can and will be done. LOL – I know everyone is dying to know what that special event is but everyone will just have to wait to find out because I am not telling. Oh by the way – don’t ask Towanna because she won’t tell you either. Right now, outside of completing our first project, maybe a convention, and the special event, we are not planning too much at this time for next year.

The holidays have been a very good one for me. Christmas Eve and half Christmas day I spent with my father and step mom and her kids. I enjoyed watching the boys opening their gifts.  The way they ripped open the packages, tossing wrapping paper about made our den look like a tornado struck it. I could not help but laugh when their eyes brighten with joy at the treasures they received. The rest of Christmas day and Monday, I enjoyed time with my grandmother, mom and stepdad. Boy was my grandmother the jackpot winner this year. I received Bama and UK things – gooooooo Bama, gooooooo UK (Laughing) I also got a new flat screen TV. Towanna says to look at it good now because after the first of the year, I won’t have time to see it much. Monday afternoon, mom and I had some good quality mother/son time by going to the movies. Then Monday night, I was back at Dad’s for another long time family tradition – a book swap and dinner. I am hoping that one year – sooner than later – that Towanna and I will see one of our novels being exchanged during our traditional book swap. Towanna and I had a small gift exchange. I do so think that in the future, we will enjoy spoiling each other immensely not only throughout the year but at Christmas time as well.

As with many Decembers in the past, I have found myself extremely busy but feeling like I have accomplished very little. Of course, I know I have been busy all month. Writing, the holidays, and Towanna kept me busy that is for sure.  Sometimes I felt that I was whipping through the wintery wonderland in a blaze of wind.

When the month started, Towanna stated that she wanted chapter two to be done by the end of the month.  I almost fell out of my wheelchair due to my tendency to procrastinate, and as usual, I didn’t believe in my resolve.  Once again, I have proven myself wrong. Towanna just laughs at me. She has faith in me that often times I don’t have in myself. She knew I could do it. I am not sure what happened but I was done chapter two before I realized it. Maybe the BICHOK has something to do with it.  As it neared the week of Christmas, I started on chapter three. I am progressing along quite nicely.  I am truly surprised how fast the chapter is writing itself.  I have even done a blog or two this month. I know, I know, I should do more blogging and I have promised myself and Towanna that will be one thing I will be working on in the New Year.

Once again, I have changed how I approach my day, especially when it comes to writing. I think I am beginning to drive Towanna crazy over changing things as much as I do but she remains a trooper and doesn’t complain. Well, she don’t complain that much.  I tend to grow bored easy. When this happens, I find myself laughing at the excuses for not writing that I tend to come up with. Poor Towanna can only shake her head at some of them. I will probably have to change my current writing process within several months. I have mixed feelings about doing this. Part of me is happy I can find something that helps me to get my creativity out of me and onto paper. On the other hand it slows me down and it takes a while for me to get geared back up to where I should be.

With each passing month, I am finding myself getting out of the habit of wanting and needing to be just like every other writer out there. I know no two people are the same – especially writers. I have caught myself a couple times this month stopping myself from comparing me to others. Towanna has told me many times that I am a unique person with an ability many others have and that if I put my mind to it, I can be a successful published writer.

Before I close, I would like to take this time to thank all those who stand behind me and lend support to me whenever or wherever I need it. Both Towanna and I would also like to wish each and every one that reads this along with their family and friends a very safe and happy New Year. May next year bring bounties of goodness that surpasses your expectations. May the fruit of life bring you peace, happiness and love.

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Can’t Wait. Can You?

Today, I would like to discuss anticipation and motivation. For me, it goes hand and hand as I am sure it does with many others. Most days I am well motivated and anticipating whatever it is that I am writing, especially if I am near the end of a chapter.  However, when I start anticipating the future – the publishing of our novel – my fears rears their ugly head then my motivation runs like fire through a forest away from me. My ambition and motivation returns but sometimes I often procrastinate in allowing that to happen.

I know that there are times and places to think of the future but given we are just starting chapter three of our current work in progress (WIP), I think I should stay more in today than in the future. I never get anything accomplish when I start thinking about what will happen once our agent or publisher gets a hold of the manuscript or if I think about book signings, cons, etc. I know those days will be extremely busy promoting the current novel as well as beginning the next project. I know I can do all the work but I tend to let myself be conned into thinking it will be too much on me.

It doesn’t help that I am a huge fusspot no matter which side of the scale I am currently on. My OCD kicks in and grasp anything that I am focusing on and ends up creating havoc.  When the time comes that I reach out to the future, to what is coming down the highway of writing towards me, I tend to focus hard and long on it. When either Towanna or I realize what I am doing and we try to refocus me to the here and now, I leave the future hesitantly to return to the place where I am looking at each and every moment of the day – every minute detail.

Towanna has often given me that “stay in today and maybe glance at tomorrow” lecture. I know she is right but some days my brain wants to do its own thing. There is days that I just don’t want to write and I go off and do what I shouldn’t be doing. Usually by the end of the day, I am extremely worn out and end up focusing on nothing. That is when my “stinking thinking” as Towanna calls it steps in and then I get fussed at for thinking I can’t do something that we both know I can do.

So in closing, I would like to state a goal that Towanna has suggested many times for me to set for myself which I believe I will do. That being – stay in today, glance at tomorrow and just write what words that formulate in my mind. The future will be here sooner than what we realize and if I don’t accomplish what I should today then I won’t be prepared for the future. Today presents to me the time and the affordability for me to do this. After we publish the first novel, things will be different. We will be bouncing off the walls and there won’t be no turning back. We can’t wait.

Ho Ho Ho: An early present from the person who runs The Asylum

 

To many of us, November is the start of the holiday season and the time of year when our already busy lives get even busier. Yet, in a lot of ways it is filled with fun, laughter and the making of memories – which all of us need. I know Towanna has something up her sleeve which she will not even hint what it is. I am stuck waiting until she divulges what it is – whenever that will be. Bah humbug – I hate waiting when I don’t know the secret.

This month was hard in a few ways for Towanna and me (for different reasons) which I am not going to discuss at this time.  We are communicating with each other and helping each other through what is going on, and that is what counts the most. The least amount said, the better it will be. Besides this isn’t time or place to discuss those reasons. When the time is right and we have created our personal blogs, which is after we are published, we will begin to divulge more of our personal sides to everyone.

This month has been busy for both of us in the personal and professional arenas. Such is life – right? We have moved forward with the book, the start of my first short story and Towanna’s business venture outside of writing.

We long last finished the writing of chapter one of our novel. I sat on it for so long, I can’t believe it’s finally finished. To be honest, I was dancing in my wheelchair because we are done – that is literally not figuratively. There was a scene that was extremely hard for me to write. It took a lot of coaching and support from Towanna for me to get through it. Once it was in her hands, we seem to zip on through to the end. We have semi-polished it and it’s off to our first reader. We have high hopes it will be enjoyed and not too much has to be changed when we receive it back.

At the beginning of this month, I started a short story – a prequel to our novel. I had time on my hands while Towanna work to organize both her jobs and catch up in her share of the writing. I think I was driving her up the wall because she told me to get lost and find something to work on. So off to writing I went and the short story came to life. Being I am use to writing in long form, I soon ran into trouble. By this time, Towanna was caught up and we re-focused on chapter one. So the short story waits quietly in the trunk until it is resurrected again. Towanna has already warned me that it is not there to stay – it will be completed. All I can do is sit here and think, “A story I put into the trunk – completed? I heard miracles happen. Time will tell who wins this one.”

Chapter two of the novel is well under its way. Due to circumstances out of our control, Towanna has had to put the novel down for a while to deal with issues that life has tossed her way but I am still forging ahead. She will soon be caught up and then it will be full steam ahead.

Speaking of Towanna, her business idea is starting to take off finally.  She will be busier than ever once the center is open. I am worried she’ll spread herself too thin and burn out but she reassures me she has a secret weapon that will prevent that and for some reason, I believe her. I sure wish her all the happiness in this business venture. She deserves success and wealth in life and this venture has a high success rate. I will not go into details of what the business is but I feel it deep inside me – it’s a money  maker for me (shush – don’t tell her I said that – lol) I am extremely pleased because it will provide us the income that we will need solely between the royalty checks. Despite what you might think, an author only gets only a small percentage of book sells, and the rest goes to their agent and the publisher. Oh my, she has just told me, I will be double dipping to – I have to help her with her business – oi vey – watch out world here we come.

This month sure has been very prosperous for us and I hope December will be even better. I am hoping the short story will be ready for Towanna to edit and put her two cents in by the New Year. Then the story will be off into the world to find itself home. Towanna is hoping chapter two will be done by the New Year. I think she is nuts but she is determine. When that woman gets determined to do something she is like the insane train Blaine from Stephen King’s Dark Tower series. Nothing can stop her and she refuses to slow down or quit until she gets where she wants to be. How this month will turn out, I have no clue. I know I will be pushing us and Towanna says she is definitely going to push us (like that is something new.)

To close, Towanna and I would like to take the time to wish everyone a very happy and safe holiday. May your homes be filled with family and friends (and insane characters) as well as good will, peace and love.