Don’t fear I’m alive and watching the Wildcats dominate the world

Since the beginning of the year, life – both with writing and personal sides – has kept me extremely busy. I was so busy that I missed posting my EOM (end of the month) January 2012 blog. Towanna has been so extremely busy with doing things in her personal life that she has literally fallen behind in her writing. OMG! She is the most organized and stay ahead of the game person I have ever known. Yet each day, I have seen her slip further and further behind to the point, I have had to get the binoculars out to make sure she is still back there. Does that tell you how busy her personal life has been? For those whose curiosity is killing you right now, I will not speak of Towanna’s personal life at this time. It is for her, and her only, to talk about. Let’s just say it has been a very long and hard few months on her and me both. It was very difficult to sit and see the one I love struggle knowing there wasn’t much I could do to help.

Towanna and I have one thing in common – the NEED to control things in our lives but then who don’t.  For those who don’t know me – I am driven daily by the need to control even things that is out of my control. I feel this stems from me having Cerebral Palsy and the fact that many things are out of my control and there is nothing I can do about it. While she is not as bad as I am, she has had to pause in her writing to gain control and reorganize. I think my partner in crime was being driven crazy over it all. Now that things are settled, she is back to her writing. This writer for one is DAMN happy she is back.

One of my New Year’s resolutions was to start controlling my diabetes a lot better than I have been doing the last few years. This means I have to stop being stubborn, pig-headed, and quit eating all the foods that I know I should not be eating. It also means that on special holidays and special events that I must remember I am diabetic and I have NO EXCUSE to send my sugar level soaring to the other side of the universe. Like I said, this year is the year that I control it without giving Towanna and others headaches over it. This includes NOT getting cranky and irritable when I want something I can’t have. Ok, ok, ok, I must admit it. I get unbearable when I want something and don’t get it.

The last few months, I have been having seizures – some bad, some not so bad. The more intense seizures are scaring me.  When an attack occurs, I have no chance of contacting anyone. This is what I fear the most. I also fear that I won’t be able to contact someone in time. Once I have a seizure, it takes a while for me to get back to where I am focused. Rest assured though, Mom is setting up the appointment necessary to get them checked out.

I know that I must take care of myself in order to have a life where I can complete my eternal list of things I want to do. I don’t want anything to happen to me. I have a great family, a gal that I adore more than anything in this world and a promising writing career; I want to stick around to see how it all turns out.

Recently, my mother received some news from her doctor that was less than pleasing – actually it was very upsetting and disturbing for me to hear. Mom has always been over healthy. I worry about what I will do if anything happens to mom. She has been my number one fan since the day I was born – no matter what. The year I attended Wright State University, I tried to do everything on my own from attending classes to make my aides’ schedules and that didn’t turn out to well.  I know Towanna will help once she moves to Bowling Green, but the way things are going with her job it might be more than a year before she can move. With the diagnosis mom received, it has created a change in my normal routine. Here in the near future, I will be over at dads’ more often. That means more writing at his house. I try not to write at his house due to my own personal reasons but I must do what I must do.

I have been posting to Tweeter more since the first of the year. My id is @WThomasMarkham. Towanna has been on me for months to get on tweeter to post. She says EVERYONE has a tweeter account and that everyone that is anyone is on tweeter. I have to admit that it is not as bad as I tried to make it out to be but then that which I really don’t want to do that I know I must do turns out that way.

Since December, I have been working hard on the novel. We now have two beta readers who has been a great source of suggestions and ideas to us.(Thank you our beta readers) We feel that chapter one is now ready to be put to rest for a while.(Thank God) Chapter 2 is being worked on slowly but surely by Towanna. I think she is actually done with it. I will know later this week. (Sits on Uncle Fred to help him contain his excitement) I have my part of chapter 3 completed and is now sitting on Towanna’s desk looking at her balefully waiting for her hands to torture our main character some. The completion of my part of chapter 4 is right around the corner. I have had a few seeds pop in my head on how to close it out and I have taken my sweet time selecting the one I want to use.

In closing, I would like to say that life is over all fantastic for me. Sure there has been a few disappointing moments for me but I have to admit overall it has been great so far this year. Towanna and I are going forward with the book. We are hoping by the end of 2012 it will be ready for a great editor to edit and send off to the publisher. We are also looking forward to Towanna moving back to Kentucky where she belongs. Therefore, until next time, I hope everyone has a happy and wonderful month.